hihi today is sunday and same as alway nth to do at home haha but next sunday i am working at night 6pm onward at central point.

i been asking God about many thing. did i make the right chose to stay at DI unit as because i want to help to rise up a new leader. in kelvin's group for now i cant see who can rise up, even for myself, i also think i am not ready but we cant just rise a leader by our own will as only God can rise up a true leader to serve him and lead his people toward his kingdom.

so what can i do? only to keep on growing and support my leader. those day i dont have the heart to share christ to my friends or even ppl i dont know. i have no idea what wrong with me but my going to be sheep ask me this. how do i QT if i dont even have the heart that want to do it?? i tell him even he dont have the heart, still he need to try to God by doing QT as this the only way to Grow. we can throw teaching to him and me but will we Grow?? ans is NO!! because we listen to the teaching but did we use it and keep it in mine and our life?? if we dont then its no point to learn from that teaching at all if u dont have the heart to use it and apply it to your life!!

now already past one one month in RP and i still can get my life past of it. but sometime really sian as no ppl go out for lunch haha of cos i can go with my classmate by i chose not too as i can see my classmate everyday and so on but i really looking for ppl who are new and not so close to me.

i not sure if jialing got visit here my blog or not. but i really want to encourage her to stay strong in her life in RP. even she cant get the use to it. dont know her noted or not. i only can say this in my blog and not infront of her. i still like u JIALING!! but i know we can be together as still not the time yet i put my Trust in God that my time will come if now is the time for LTR!! O lord my GOD. i believe in every time i do u will bless and will repent from my sin to become a better person of my life!!

regard,
Ken